My life really is... miserable.
A friend told me ii should go out and make new friends. So i've tried, and i've been backstabbed. It hurts so bad that ii cant even hold my tears. ii ran off to toilet and cried quietly. embarrassing huh?
ii was scolded by the supervisor today for being lazybum, and other workers complaint too. I've worked my ass off helping them and do a simple things that which they're lazy to put effort in - such as, hey can u help me take that jug. Then the supervisor saw me doing 'unnecesssary' stuffs, which was supposely to be their works not mine, and being criticize harshly without getting backup from them. What a great collegues!?! DISAPPOINTED!
Today i've been warned to get an improvement within 2weeks, or else i'll get fired. Anger firing inside me, and sadness (feels like) engulfing my soul. I hold my tears for nearly an hour and thinking of quitting instead of getting fired later on. Then, reminicing my recent past sadness and sorrow, and the burdens i've been through, put me into a position of giving up (including my life).
I've made a decision and face back the supervisor asking for quitting the job since i wasnt good enough for them and told her to find a better new worker. After that im reaching my limit of holding my tears, and ran off to the toilet.
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P/S: ... in a state of giving up life. Nobody understand. Never will.
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